you're like a fever i can't break.

it's been way too long since i've posted, but life has honestly been a complete rollercoaster lately. i'll try and do better :)

and, i'm going to continue on with my monthly challenge, even though i havent posted in a looong ass time.

day o6. a picture of you from 2007.



this is back when i had short hair, i was kinda cute i think haha. i look really happy

i will post again later, promise :)

i stand corrected

Do you ever wonder what it is inside of you that makes you decide the things that you decide?
I wonder sometimes... where did I get this moral code that keeps me doing from kick-ass things, and why do I listen to it? Maybe when I think I'm doing something right, I'm actually being totally stupid and limiting myself because I'm actually scared.

I think that's the truth of it - I am scared. I am scared of doing something that people won't like, of being someone that people aren't appreciative of. And it worries me, because I want to be my own person, and do things for me, but I feel like sometimes it isn't een possible because I don't jknow where my thoughts are coming from... What I think is my opinion may be influenced by something else and I might make stupid decisions that have nothing to do with what I really want.

This probably doesn't even make sense.
I'm just confused... about what I'm doing, why I'm doing it, and why I'm not doing some other things. Ughhhh.

i fell into a burning ring of fiiiire.

No posts for a while - oops. Summer is busy, you know? I've been enjoying life.

Anyways, I must resume my daily post thing.

day o5. a website.

this is quite a strange one, as i have no idea what kind of website i should post. i've come up with this one : www.cutoutandkeep.com . it's a DIY website that has tons of DIY directions, from make it yourself dresses to alchoholic gummy bears. check it out :)

why would you lie about something dumb like that? why would you lie about anything at all.

Oops, I missed a day. What am I doing with my life.

Day o3.
What you did today.
(I'm going to write what I did yesterday because that was the day I was supposed to do it for, whoopsie daisy)
Yesterday I... slept in until about noon. Got up and had some cereal... Read an Isabel Allende novel for a few hours. Got ready for work, went to work... came home and talked to the boy and then went to sleep. Not too interesting haha.

Day o4.
A picture you took.


I chose this one because I really like it, and cause I have this weird obsession with clouds, so I thought this adequately represented me.

Haha. What a strange post. I'll be sure to post again when life gets interesting.

i need love, 'cause only love is true.

day o2.
the meaning behind your blog name.

The meaning behind my blog is... pretty much nothing, to tell the truth. My name is Gracia, which is kinda sorta similar to Grace. And I've always had a bit of an infatuation with the simple elegance and sophistication of people who are poised without effort. So, Casual Grace represents what I want for myself, what I'm striving for.

... Hopefully that makes sense :)

oh, your body will burn tonight, though your heart may still remain.

I'm going to do a blog entry each day for 30 days, following a set of questions/things to do. Starting today! :)

Day o1.
A recent picture of you and 5 random facts about yourself.



random fact o1.
I'm a huge book nerd. When I get a big paycheck, I treat myself by going to chapters and buying books. I've loved reading/books for pretty much as long as I can remember. I'm a very fast reader - I can get through a book in about 2 hours if I want to, depending on the size of course. Whenever I'm really upset and I feel like I'm going to explode, I pick up a book. They're my escape.

random fact 02.
I'm afraid of dogs. I've never really told anyone that, but it's true. Especially the jumpy, hyper, really excited ones. They just freak me out. But at the same time, I totally want one. I have issues.

random fact 03.
There aren't too many people that I feel really comfortable with. No, that's not right... there are many people that I feel comfortable with, I get along with people quite easily. But I always seem to be the person that isn't in the "inner group", if you know what I mean. I'm a bit of an outcast, and I always have been. I'm not too sure why. That's not to say that I don't have friends, because I do. I'm just not overly close with people because they seem to not like me as much as I like them. That sounds so pathetic! But I'm not complaining, that's just the way it is.

random fact 04.
I am in love with music. I listen to it constantly, and it makes me happy.

random fact 05.
I want to make a difference in the world. Stupid, 'cause everyone says that. But I actually do, I want to make a difference for someone who is hurting.

:)

you don't ask for no diamond rings, no delicate strings of pearls.

I officially want to marry Dallas Green.
It's not really a big deal or anything.

i just wanna waste some time with you.

Today was... absolutely amazing. I think that I'm actually falling for him. And, to be honest, that scares the shit out of me. I feel like me with him. I can do anything, say anything. Be the absolute loser that I am, and he still just smiles at me like I'm the most special thing he's ever seen.

I hate to be cheesey, and I don't want to put more importance on this relationship than it deserves, but... he makes me feel whole, complete. And that's not something that I want to lose. It's been almost 4 months. And as hard as I fight it, I can't deny that some serious feelings are taking hold of me.

I'm really scared. So, so scared that I'm deluding myself. That this is nothing more than a summer fling to him, and that when I move we'll just lose touch. God. I don't even know what to do about next year. I don't even want to think about it, I just want to enjoy what we have.

As scary as it is, I'm in love with how I feel.

butterflies in my tummy!

i always get nervous when people come over to my house. or when i go over to people's houses. isn't that strange? it's like i have this crazy anxiety when i'm out of my comfort zone. and it's annoying. i mean, it's something that i'm really trying to get over. but it doesn't seem to go away. no matter what i do!
i'm frustrated with myself. why can't i be one of those people who can do whatever they want?? ugh, being shy is lame.

i guess i'll just have to grin and bear it.