The last couple days I have been napping every day when I get home from school 'cause I'm just wiped out. It's weird. And I can't decide if I like it haha. But life goes on.
Anywho, big fight with le boyfriend last night. Woot woot. I'm so mean when I'm mad. But it's all good, 'cause we talked everything out and now we're all fine and dandy! So, no harm done. And I've heard that when people don't argue then their relationship is flawed! So clearly, ours is fine haha.
Ooh. So today was the first unit exam in Math 30 Pure. Freakin' scary mang. It's kinda hard, but that's okay because this is potentially the LAST TIME that I'll take a math course, ever! Oh wow, that is so so so exciting. I've gotta do good in this though haha or else I won't get into my school :( and that would be 100% tragic.
I'm totally rambling about crazy random things. It's fantastic. Hmm. Oh I know what I should talk about.
This weekend I'm going to my friend Amanda's place for a little gathering. It's going to be amazing. Except some of my friends are kind of starting to piss me off. I mean, really, you're going to ditch all your friends to go to a party where there are going to be a bunch of drunk people everywhere just so that you can hook up with girls? That's just ridiculous. It bugs me so much when people are like that. So they must smarten up or I'll be forced to beat them. :) ANYWAYS, other than those shennanigans it's gonna be all good. I'm stoked to chill with my peeps haha. It's gonna be good times.
Alright well I'm not in the mood to write any more. So I'm going to sign off. Oh, and I'll write about my Wilderness trip later. I just don't have the stamina for that much writing right now :P So later alligators!
Showing posts with label EWW FRIEND DRAMA. Show all posts
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Thursday, September 17, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
It never really ends, does it?
Well, I've learned a lot of new things lately.
I've discovered that when you just don't want to talk to someone anymore, if you're just sick of their behaviour and need to get away from them... There is really no way. My former "best friend" is one of those people. I'm just done with dealing with her. No longer do I want to have to put up with all her issues, and get nothing in return.
It's so ridiculous though, 'cause as soon as I stopped talking to her (although it was a gradual process) she decided to latch onto some of our mutual friends.. but ones who she continually said bad things about when we were friends. She always went on and on about how they were bitches, and two-faced, and all that jazz, and now she's right next to them, being extremely two-faced and fake. I know that it really shouldn't bother me, but it does.
Sometimes I just feel like I'm drowning here. Like I need to get out of this town and start living my life. It's so frustrating to be stuck here, not able to change any of my problems because no matter what I do, people just turn it on me and make me feel like I'm the evil little coniving girl who has nothing better to do but hurt everyone. Ugh.
Lately I've been researching schools a lot. Well, one school. U of A. I want to go there, so so so much. I went on a tour there in.. April? The beginning of April I think. It was amazing there. It was so beautiful, and everyone seemed so happy to be there. We went to the Humanities wing or building or whatever it was, and it was just so nice. Everything was so open and welcoming. The people didn't stare, and there was such a large amount of people that clearly everyone wouldn't know everyone.
Oh man, just thinking about makes me anxious to go there. The thing is, I haven't really been doing that well in school lately. Well, in Bio. I just find it so difficult. It's so frustrating. It worries me 'cause i only have a month left of school, and then I'll be a senior. And that's when you really need to start cracking the whip and get good grades. I'm so scared that I won't get in. My whole life I've thoguht of myself as pretty smart. I always used to get good grades. I don't want my last two years to ruin the rest of my school year. It's just so scary to think about.
On the one hand, I'm totally stressed about my friends and all the ridiculous conflicts that are going on with them, but on the other hand, I really only have one more year that those are the biggest worries I'm going to have. I think I'm going to try and enjoy my life for as long as I can. God knows I could use some fun these days.
I've discovered that when you just don't want to talk to someone anymore, if you're just sick of their behaviour and need to get away from them... There is really no way. My former "best friend" is one of those people. I'm just done with dealing with her. No longer do I want to have to put up with all her issues, and get nothing in return.
It's so ridiculous though, 'cause as soon as I stopped talking to her (although it was a gradual process) she decided to latch onto some of our mutual friends.. but ones who she continually said bad things about when we were friends. She always went on and on about how they were bitches, and two-faced, and all that jazz, and now she's right next to them, being extremely two-faced and fake. I know that it really shouldn't bother me, but it does.
Sometimes I just feel like I'm drowning here. Like I need to get out of this town and start living my life. It's so frustrating to be stuck here, not able to change any of my problems because no matter what I do, people just turn it on me and make me feel like I'm the evil little coniving girl who has nothing better to do but hurt everyone. Ugh.
Lately I've been researching schools a lot. Well, one school. U of A. I want to go there, so so so much. I went on a tour there in.. April? The beginning of April I think. It was amazing there. It was so beautiful, and everyone seemed so happy to be there. We went to the Humanities wing or building or whatever it was, and it was just so nice. Everything was so open and welcoming. The people didn't stare, and there was such a large amount of people that clearly everyone wouldn't know everyone.
Oh man, just thinking about makes me anxious to go there. The thing is, I haven't really been doing that well in school lately. Well, in Bio. I just find it so difficult. It's so frustrating. It worries me 'cause i only have a month left of school, and then I'll be a senior. And that's when you really need to start cracking the whip and get good grades. I'm so scared that I won't get in. My whole life I've thoguht of myself as pretty smart. I always used to get good grades. I don't want my last two years to ruin the rest of my school year. It's just so scary to think about.
On the one hand, I'm totally stressed about my friends and all the ridiculous conflicts that are going on with them, but on the other hand, I really only have one more year that those are the biggest worries I'm going to have. I think I'm going to try and enjoy my life for as long as I can. God knows I could use some fun these days.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Wow, long time no post.
Well, it's been nearly three months since I've posted on this blog. Clearly this change thing isn't so easy :P
Actually, I am feeling like I've been having success in that area lately. I've been making new friends, getting closer to the people that make me happy, and getting further away from the people that make me feel like crap.
It's really quite refreshing.
Hm, since I last posted, I have:
1. got rid of those nasty partying habits. funnily enough, it happened during spring break, which is pretty much THE party time.
2. brought up my marks in both physics and bio, thank GOD.
3. started hanging out with pretty much the coolest person ever, she's my very own hollister :P
4. broke up with my boyfriend, got over my stupid anger, and then got back together with him. again, THANK GOD.
5. met said boyfriends parents, finally. scary scary scary, but really not as bad as i thought it would be.
6. gotten closer with my mum and dad, actually started to talk to them again. that's always a bonus.
7. become much more positive.. it was a long time coming, that's for sure.
8. got some AMAZING new shoes.. totally not relevant but I don't really care :P
8. last, but most definitely not least... I have finally begun to stand up to people when they do things that I really detest. I think it's quite a big step. Yay :)
Well.. Hopefully it won't be 3 more months before I post again, but who knows, high school is pretty crazy busy. I'll try and keep you updated. Thanks for reading!
Actually, I am feeling like I've been having success in that area lately. I've been making new friends, getting closer to the people that make me happy, and getting further away from the people that make me feel like crap.
It's really quite refreshing.
Hm, since I last posted, I have:
1. got rid of those nasty partying habits. funnily enough, it happened during spring break, which is pretty much THE party time.
2. brought up my marks in both physics and bio, thank GOD.
3. started hanging out with pretty much the coolest person ever, she's my very own hollister :P
4. broke up with my boyfriend, got over my stupid anger, and then got back together with him. again, THANK GOD.
5. met said boyfriends parents, finally. scary scary scary, but really not as bad as i thought it would be.
6. gotten closer with my mum and dad, actually started to talk to them again. that's always a bonus.
7. become much more positive.. it was a long time coming, that's for sure.
8. got some AMAZING new shoes.. totally not relevant but I don't really care :P
8. last, but most definitely not least... I have finally begun to stand up to people when they do things that I really detest. I think it's quite a big step. Yay :)
Well.. Hopefully it won't be 3 more months before I post again, but who knows, high school is pretty crazy busy. I'll try and keep you updated. Thanks for reading!
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