So, I officially suck at the whole writing a blog thing.
Darn it.
Honestly, I hve many excuses that I could use, but the thing is that I've had a bad case of writers block for a while now. I think it comes with being so busy that I barely have time to sleep, and stressing about my future and all that. But, I need to stop those shennanigans! I must write more.
This is going to be my very, very late new years resolution... I will write in my blog. At least once every two weeks. That should be do-able, right? Right.
Well, I have so many things that I haven't written in here that it's a bit overwhelming. Lets start with... the boy situation. Jarred broke up with me in late November. What crazy times those were. There I was, 17 years old, being a fairly normal teenager, and he pulls the religion card. I've never been very religious. Now, that doesn't mean that I don't believe in God and that I don't want to have a relationship with him. I just haven't been practicing a religion since I was born, because my parents believe in letting me make my own decisions about important things like that (which I think is fantstic, by the way). Anyways... Jarred broke up with me because I am not Christian. It was just... so very unexpected. And difficult. I mean, it's not like this was a nothing relationship. Jarred and I dated for 14 months, which is a pretty big deal. In my opinion anyways. So, there I was, in the middle of the first semester of Grade 12, and my boyfriend broke up with me because I wasn't the correct religion. WOWZA. That's all I've got to say about that one.
I must admit, the break-up was difficult for me because of losing my best friend and boyfriend, but also because I realized that I really wasn't as independant than I always thought. I was crushed. It was ridiculous. Nearly all of the teeny-bopper books that I read have heartbreak and stupid high school drama in them, and I always thought they were stupid, that I would be above all of that if it ever happened to me. Ha. What a joke. I was a wreck. And that made me angry. With myself, with Jarred, with almost everyone in my life. Whew. It was a tough couple months. I still struggle with it some days, to tell the truth. But I feel so much better. I feel healthier, and like I can really depend on myself now. It's a good feeling. As for boys... I've made a pact with myself to NOT do any serious dating until I'm actually mature enough to handle it. High school dating is supposed to be fun, not all serious! So that's where that stands.
I've been crazy busy with school in the last few months as well. Well, the last month really. This semester I'm taking Bio, Art, Chem and Social. And I'm also doing French 30 by correspondance because I was too ridiculous to do it last semester, ugh. So, I'm clearly busy with a lot of homework. And it's really tough after how slack my last semester was, but I'm almost... enjoying it. Just because it feels like what next year will probably be like, which is exciting! And also because this is my last semester of high school and I'm just SO excited to be done and gone.
Which brings me to another subject! In the last month, I got conditional acceptance for Red Deer College, early admission to University of Alberta, and I just scheduled an interview with a Mount Royal representative. Who knew that school comes with interviews and all that? So I'm hoping taht I'll be accepted to Mount Royal as well, just so that my options are open. I really would like to go to U of A though, so as long as I keep my grades up, I'm golden. I think I should be fine, since I have lots of courses that are considered "Arts" courses, which is important when you apply to be accepted into the faculty of arts. Anyways, it's all very exciting and I'm so happy and just can't wait for September! I will hopefully live in residence for the first year, so that will be an adventure. I'm super excited.
Well, there is much more. But I'm out of inspiration for now. I'll write again later!
:)
